This Christmas

THIS CHRISTMAS

Couples under the mistletoe
Keeping warm in the Christmas glow
Children jumping in the snow
The smell of baking and cookie dough
Everything seems so perfect and right
The angels sing in the heavens tonight
But as it comes ’pon a midnight clear
I’d trade it all away just to have you near.

The warmth of your body for this cold winter night
The sparkle of your eyes in this season of lights
Not a creature stirring, ‘cept you and me
Unwrapping our gifts beneath the tall tree
To be by your side is my Christmas wish
But I’m thousands of miles from the one that I miss.
Under the same sky, do you dream from your home?
This Christmas season, I spend alone.

Carolers singing at my door
Parents running from store to store
Children skating on the snow-covered ice
Santa’s visit for those who’ve been nice
Everything seems so perfect and right
Sleigh rides going all through the night
But as jingling bells begin to disappear
I’d trade it all away just to have you here.

They’re singing “Joy to the world!”
And that may well be true
But the silent night haunts me now
All I can think of is you.

Families together for a meal
Heading to mass to bow and kneel
Children laughing as they play
Hot chocolate to take the cold away
Everything seems so perfect and right
The stars shine brightly on this Holy night
But as they deck the halls with holiday cheer
I’d trade it all away to be with you this year.

The warmth of your body for this cold winter night
The sparkle of your eyes in this season of lights
Not a creature stirring, ‘cept you and me
I unwrap you completely beneath the tall tree
That knock on the door took me by surprise
Your smile brought joy back into my life
This Christmas season you came back home
And gave me your gift as I held you close.

My Life

MY LIFE

The concrete is as hard as the future
The weather is as cold as my heart
A stomach as empty as my hopes
Alone in the streets I call home.

I’ve lost everything
Most of all my dignity
Every day begging for help
Embarrassed and ashamed
Scorned and mocked.

My life was not always like this.

I remember smiling.
I remember laughing.
The innocence of a child
Searching for treasure;
Now I search for shelter.

My life was not always like this.

Nobody cares if I live or die
I care least of all.
A prisoner to all my mistakes,
I’d give anything to escape.
I’ve found there is no way out.

I’ve been forced to tell my share of lies
Struggling for clothing and food
But the biggest lie that I’ve ever told?
“My life will not always be like this”.

Every Day

EVERY DAY

Every day was pain, in your broken home
Always filled with shame, always felt alone
The blood flowed down your wrist
Death was your only wish
Every day was pain, in your broken home.

Every day was pain, in your broken soul
Holding all the blame, future dark as coal
Knew every ghost by name
You longed to fade away
Every day was pain, in your broken soul

Every day was pain, in your broken heart
Efforts all in vain, lies begin to start
The pills you popped that night
You ended your own life.
Every day was pain, now that pain has changed.

Every day is pain, without you by my side
The ocean can’t contain, all the tears I cry.
The hearse drives down the street,
Life is now incomplete
Every day is pain, without you by my side.

Every day is pain, I cannot move on
I wish that I could save, how can you be gone?
They put you six feet down
Redemption can’t be found
Every day is pain, I cannot move on.

Every day is pain, in this broken land
God’s tears fall as rain, cold against my hand
I stand here at your grave
Your memory will not fade.
Every day is pain. I love you just the same.

Alma Mater

ALMA MATER

Never forget how blessed you are
All night papers, countless readings
When the homework never ends
When you feel like complaining
Remember;
Not everyone gets this chance.

Never forget where you’re going
A bright future rests in your hands
Watch the cooks in the cafeteria
Watch the janitors mopping floors
Remember;
Not everyone gets this chance.

Never forget this opportunity
Morning classes, countless coffee
When the days become redundant
When lectures are painfully dry
Remember;
Not everyone gets this chance.

Never forget where you came from
Or those who helped you along the way
As you grow in power and wealth
Lend a hand to the weak and poor
And always remember,
Not everyone gets this chance.

In Their Eyes

IN THEIR EYES

I can see it in your eyes
After the phone calls with family
After the talks with close friends
Fears too deep to be spoken
We both know they must be shared.

Your heart hurts, it’s clear
Everyday you long to be loved
By night, only disappointment remains
A façade for any that look
Until you’re vulnerable with me.

White. Pure. Thin.
I am strong enough to hold every fear.
Your tears flow from your pen
Blue blood stains
As you become part of me.

A million possibilities
Writing, pausing, waiting, crossing out
Tickling, breathing, hurting
Your hand brushes, each stroke closer
To the portrait I am destined to become.

A simple sheet of paper
I have become so much more
The journal of your life
A testament to joy and pain
I am a recording of your healing.

You place me in a drawer, hidden
Until the right day arrives
When your friends and family meet me
They hold me, staring
And I can see it in their eyes.

Keep the Light On

KEEP THE LIGHT ON

Everybody's breaking
Everybody’s aching
Anyone who’s smiling
Must be surely faking.
A world full of darkness
Where everyone is heartless
A desperate need for justice
I know I can’t accomplish.

Everybody’s hiding
Everybody’s lying
The world now is fading
What’s the point in trying?
A world full of hatred
Where nothing is found sacred
A desperate need for faith in peace
I wish that I could still believe.

Hope is swallowed by the dark
As this world gets torn apart
But if tonight you are strong
Please keep the light on.

Everybody’s damned
To weak to even stand
We’re falling hard from grace
With no place to land.
A world going straight to hell
Our souls we so quickly sell
A desperate cry inside my heart
I just want to make it well.

Hope is swallowed by the dark
As this world gets torn apart
But if tonight you are strong
Please keep the light on.

We watch our leaders speak eloquent lies
And beat down those we marginalize
Wars are fought that we don’t want
We stand still while our world dies.
I know the problem starts inside
Building walls looking to hide
But can I even change a thing?
It doesn’t matter how hard I try.
I’m starting to doubt we can rise
Beyond our carnal desire to survive
Capitalists, terrorists, we’re all terrified
Looking for meanings to our lives
So dear love, if hope’s still in sight
Please lend me your strength tonight
Hold me in my darkest hour
And when you go, leave on the light.

Everbody’s praying
Everybody’s waiting
As angels look around
Is there anyone worth saving?
A world full of hurt and shame
Where we all point and blame
A desperate need for love and grace
I need to feel the healing reign.

Hope is swallowed by the dark
As this world gets blown apart
But if tonight you are strong
Please keep the light on.

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